busy signal...

"I want to hear you try to help me. I want to see you try to save me. I can feel it in my hands every time i dial. Oh dear god help me please because I don't want to die. 1, 2 , 3, 4, dead! It's all a lie exactly like I said. I did it. It's the time, the best time, 7 or 11, 10 or 9. Hang it up, try again. There're been a couple of really bad nights and I wasn't sure if i was going to make it. It's all I could do to stop myself from picking up phone. But now it's either I tie up the line or I let it...swing."